Happy New Year!!! Before I can talk about 2016, I want to write a love letter to 2015, as she treated me exceptionally well. So here goes . . .
I started my year laying in bed with someone I thought I loved. I was looking forward to exploring that relationship, and seeing where it would take me. I ended this year in a bed in a hotel room, sleeping. I consider that progress. BTB, as he was referred to via text, was a great person, who just wasn’t the greatest person for me. Thank you, 2015, for teaching me what I really need from a relationship.
Speaking of relationship needs, 2015, thank you for giving me closure with MM. Thank you for allowing Adele to create Hello, which gave me the in to make the phone call. Thank you for the tears, the dropping of all my walls for the first time in 4 years, and understanding I’ll never get over the loss of him, and finally being okay with it. Thank you for helping me to finally be adult enough to deal with him, and understanding me not being in his life, is HIS loss, and no longer mine.
Also, 2015, thank you for all the travel I’ve been blessed enough to have this year. Thank you that most of it has been not at my expense. Thank you that I’ve been blessed enough to explore new places, and experience new food, and open myself to new people. Thank you for the single serving friends I made while stranded in the Dallas airport, who stayed awake with me and shared their lives for that brief 16 hour clusterfuck. Thank you for Seattle, and Tiffany. Thank you my trip back to Detroit, and the $1300 in Travel Vouchers I earned by simply taking a later flight.
Thank you, 2015, for finally finding my career. For showing me, almost every day, that I CAN make a difference in the life of a child in more than one way. Thank you for combining my greatest life skill, Stalking People on the Internet, with my passion for helping children and making them work. Thank you for giving me jobs which provided me with the autonomy I’ve always needed to succeed when working for others
Thank you, 2015, for my God-Children, and all the children I’ve ever taught or worked with, who still remember me and are a part of my life. Thank you for my Parents, with all their eccentricities. Thank you that they are still alive, and well, and a part of my everyday life. Thank you for the blessing of being able to call them when I need them, but also being able to call them without needing a thing. Thank you for my family, immediate and extended, in all shapes, colors, ethnicities, and ages. Thank you for the family I’ve created, and the family God gave me. We are a work in progress.
Lastly, but most importantly 2015, thank you for my Friends. Thank you for reminding me who they are, and who they were, and that they love me. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to see 85% of them while I was in Detroit/Dayton/Cincinatti, and spend quality time with them. Thank you for the astonishing realization that all of us are ADULTS, who make adult decisions every day, and are happy in our lives. Thank you for helping us to navigate life together, and sometimes apart, and still be able to look each other in the eye with pride.
Thank You 2015, even for the earth shattering losses of this year. Thank you for all the tears, and fears, and self-doubt, and bad times. Because I’ve grown so much more than I even knew until recently. Thank you for Everything, 2015. You’ve definitely made me a a better person.