So I decided this summer, to create a playlist for the season. Put some songs together that reminded me of specific people, places or things. It all started at The Read Live in DC. They were playing so MANY good songs before the show started, I had to find them and at them to my Spotify Rotation.
That Playlist is the perfect way for me to get all up IN my feelings, cuz this past summer was life changingly awesome and horrible, ALL AT THE SAME TIME. It’s always good to repeat an excellent Idea, so I made a Fall 2019 one as well. I present, some thoughts about life thanx to Spotify.
Aye, I’m CUTE.
I don’t know if you knew. You should know . . . I’m getting cuter by the day. Shouts to My Personal Trainer. I’ve lost about 30 more pounds this summer . . . I’m wearing clothes I never thought I would. I set goals that would have been outrageous 6 months ago, and now, completing them by the end of the year seems very possible.
Unfortunately, with the Glow Up comes the stragglers. Folks that wouldn’t give me the time of day 50 or 100 pounds ago. Now it’s, “Heeeeeeeeeey MJ, you are doing so good. I’m proud of you. You should call me.”
Why? I’m the same MJ . . . just smaller. If you wasn’t tryna drink out the 2 Liter, you can’t get the 20oz, ya dig?!?! Also, I can’t call you. . . . My Personal Trainer doesn’t allow me to train with other people 😉
Can’t Be Broken
So many times in the last year, I’ve felt like . . .It can’t get any worse. Nothing else could come into my life what is harder to understand than this thing I’m trying to heal from right now.
Then . . . Here comes Harder. Some kind of way, I keep fighting my way out. I keep clawing my way out of the low places I’ve found myself in. That’s the lesson – You can Always Get Out.
Even though it feels like there is no hope. You will get out of it. I know it seems impossible. I know the weight feels like it’s trying to break your chest ON PURPOSE. But you getting out of it, will let you know just how Strong you are.
You Don’t Know
Jill Scott made this album before I grew up. When it first came out, I wasn’t really feeling it. I listened, then went back to the albums I already loved. The vibe of the album didn’t appeal to where I was in my life.
A year ago, I listened to it again, and realized why Jill Scott had changed in the last few year. She grew the fuck up. She realized the type of love she was looking for required Preparation . . . Sacrifice . . . . SelfLessNess. Things I’m STILL trying to learn about.
I can’t believe how hard it is to try to build a LIFE with someone. To have to get out of your own head . . .let go of your own shit . . . make them let go of theirs . . . and try not to fuck it up by assuming the worst about EVERYTHING.
It Ain’t Yours to Throw Away
Look, Nashville had some GOOD ass Music.
I’ve had some days y’all. I’ve had some days where it seemed like being around wasn’t helpful to anyone else. One of those days, I put my phone on shuffle, and this song came on 1st.
What if you’re just a vessel,
And God gave you something special,It ain’t yours to throw away
It ain’t yours to throw awayEvery time you open up your mouth,
Diamonds come rolling out
It ain’t yours to throw away