To whom it may concern:
You broke my heart. Not on some “We in love” type shit, I wasn’t dreaming about forever. But we had SUCH a good thing going. And yet . . . at the end of the day, it wasn’t what I thought. My brothers tried to tell me, but like a dummy I didn’t listen. Because I knew better . . . I was doing this the right way, and my feelings weren’t involved. Or so I thought . . . because after all this time, I’m still hurt.
Maybe I’m the one to blame
That’s just how the game goes
Just want someone to hold
Everybody needs somebody to be there when they’re alone
I just want you to save me (yea)
Just want you to save me . . .
I’d made my mind up, we were going to make this whole thing work for years. Maybe I got arrogant, I thought we were on the same level. Underneath it all, I thought we respected each other enough to be honest, at all time. I never lied to you. Not once, I was always upfront. When I was wrong, I told you. When you were wrong, I checked you. I thought that made us friends.
I’ve known most of my life that I’m a loyal person. If I consider you a friend, then that’s just it. We are Ride or Die. I have your back, and you have mine. I would never do something to harm you, and I thought it was vice versa. Maybe that’s why I’m so hurt. Because you accused me to something I would NEVER have done.
He said you’re my everything
I love you through everything, I done did everything to him
He forgave me for everything, this a forever thing
Hate that I treat it like it’s a whatever thing
Trust me, boy, this shit is everything to me
Okay, so maybe I lied once. I told you it was just . . . fun. It meant something. On multiple levels. The right people knew what it meant, except you. Either way, you mattered . . . and always have. You know THAT, I Know you know that. But at the end of it all . . . the ugly ass way it ended . . . I wasn’t prepared. I didn’t have time to get myself ready. Because it didn’t end the way I wanted to end. I just wasn’t ready for it.
The things that I would do to you with just a couple seconds
I would color every moment, make you feel like it’s forever
I’m comin’ over, so you can start undressin’
I’m givin’ you a chance to finally make a good impression
When I first heard the version of this song on Volume 1, I was PISSED it was only 90 secs. I thought it held so much potential. I wanted to send this song to you. It was the perfect statement was what I wanted us to be. “Get Ready . . . a Bitch has plans.” That’s what the text would have said. I needed you to know my mindset. But alas . . . . The Road to Hell is Paved with “Good Intentions.” This was supposed to be the next level shit we had talked about. But it all fell apart.
You only show me love
When it comes to the music
It’s like when I feel lonely
That’s when you start actin’ choosey
I don’t wanna keep playin’ them games
‘Cause I feel like I’m losin’
So I’m done. I needed to be anyway. But I’m done. Because it’s probably the better decision, at least for me. But I miss the security that existed because you were in my life. I miss having the knowledge that there was someone out there that thought of me and smiled. Or maybe you didn’t, and I’m making that up. It makes it easier to lie to myself.
He has you lost in your emotions
And you hate feeling so alone
And now your simpin’ because you know
You shouldn’t have stayed until the morning
It wasn’t worth all the heartache
It wasn’t worth all of the pleasure
Because you were once a diamond
He made you feel like buried treasure
You broke my heart. And I’m judging myself because of that. Because I KNEW better. I’ve been down that road, and knew how it ended. But I still . . . quite stupidly . . . had hope that we could be friends at the end of it all. But, friends don’t do that to each other. Friends don’t say shit like, “I mean I hear what you are saying . . . but I don’t believe you.” I’m sitting here, dealing with it. Because I have to, even if I don’t want to. But it hurts. Alot.
I’m still lost holding in all of the anger
At the bottom of the ocean and I thought you’d be my savior.
I was distracted, unaware of his behavior
But when I started drowning, I didn’t know he was the anchor.