Thank you, for being the soundtrack of growing up. I first paid attention to Beyonce when the remix to No, No, No came out. Maybe junior year of high school? I didn’t care enough to know who was in the group, and I wasn’t buying no albums. But I really liked that song.
Destiny’s Child
Enter the summer before College. I spent most of my time with Nakkia, as we tagged along with folks. We both worked at Pizza Hut, with a cool ass white boy boss, who mostly looked like Drew Carey. He let us play our music, and the single for Bills, Bills, Bills came out. I loved the song, and the video. The single also had song snippets. And the 15 sec clip that was on repeat . . . Bug A Boo.
Any group that could have me feenin’ for snippets on random AOL Chat Rooms, I needed this album.
The Writing’s on the Wall
Fast forward to every Friday Night 1st semester of Freshman Year, this was the CD for the “Get Ready” dance party. 4 Girls, in one small ass room {who knows why my single dorm was the hang out spot}, dancing in the mirror getting ready for the BATU Party. This was the soundtrack for my first drink, my first nasty dancing in a corner at a house party, the first times I tried to do my hair on my own.
I remember the conversation we all had when the Say My Name video came out . . . and we saw new noses and group members. We were eagerly awaiting the explanation . . . and we ain’t eva really get one. Didn’t really matter. The album was Flames, and we couldn’t wait until the next one came out.
Survivor
The first song I ever sang in public (not at church) was Independent Woman, Part 1. We had to harmonize the bridge, and we KILLED it. Not to mention, I somehow got the nickname Bug a Boo during my process. This album is the soundtrack of my 1st year as a Zeta. The road trip to Blue & White in Columbus, the summer I worked in the bakery. Aaliyah leaving Dangerously In Love on repeat in her dorm for at least 12 hours. Happy Face helped get me out of my 1st real bout of Depression.
Dangerously In Love
We all knew she was going solo, when we heard Dangerously In Love on Survivor. Just like JT and Gone, we knew Beyonce was ready to branch out on her own. This album is the soundtrack of my 1st car. . . . of the man who sold it to me, and my intro to [redacted]. This is car concerts singing Baby Boy, and driving down to Dayton to make sure I got to dance to songs from this album. This album is #TOTGA and realizing I was in some serious like with #HIM.
Destiny Fulfilled
Their best album, in my humble opinion. This album felt like, we grown now . . . let us be. This album is the soundtrack of living on my own for the 1st time. The mix CD’s I made for a childhood crush . . . the ones he made for me as replies. The background of the end of a significant friendship, and the rekindling of the most important one. Every video was an entire MOOD, and we were all waiting for them to premiere on TRL.
B’Day
This album reminds me of a huge time of transition in my life, the time when “Flaws and All” was my guiding light. If someone can accept her, they can accept me, right? But I wasn’t part of the BeyHive yet. I was just liking music and buying albums.
I Am . . . . Sasha Fierce
This album is when I became a fan. This is the soundtrack of MJ’s Detroit Year of Love. This is the soundtrack of getting ready to go out every weekend. Of attending every Greek event, and making new friends. Getting numbers for the 1st time in my life. The brief moment of self love that was shining through every where I went. This is also the soundtrack of my 1st teaching job, having fun in my classroom, making up dance routines with Nicole and Carmen, and still remembering them to th day.
4
Whew . . . . this album. The second major heartbreak of my life. This album is the pick myself up off the ground . . . then drag me right on back there. The despair of losing everything . . . and the joy that came when I got it back. Every song on this album takes me to a specific place, time, emotion, person. Baby I miss you . . . . Nigga you lost the best you will ever have . . . Can we try everything all over . . . .
I remember when we were all excited to find out Blue was coming. This is definitely when I became a card carrying member of the Hive. This album was on repeat in my car. This is my . . . Beyonce done Grown Up, album. She was singing about different shit. I started to take notice.
Beyonce
I was in a hotel room when this album dropped. [REDACTED] Someone bought this album for me, on iTunes, because it wasn’t on Spotify. This album is the soundtrack of my going back to AZ. Of starting something new . . . and holding on to someone I should have let go. The soundtrack of a specific relationship, of starting it and ending it. Of living alone, and being happy in my space alone. These videos take me to a specific feeling of awe, that Beyonce is constantly able to do something new. Being in awe of her talent, her seeming perfection.
Lemonade
At this point, Beyonce had become a black cultural phenomenon. We all gathered whenever something was happening. To comment, Stan, be in love with Beyonce the entity. We had warning. We knew it was coming, but we were unprepared. We had just lost Prince, we were reeling from that . . . and along come Lemonade. There was a collective sigh on Social Media as it started . . . I think i have 83 tweets for that day.
It was the Black Female experience in a way we never knew it needed to be told. The raw emotion Lemonade evoked . . . seeing this person you’ve come to Idolize, be human. Have flaws, have been hurt publicly. IT was so beautiful to see the progression of that time in her life. In a real way, without making everything look shiny and new. And she had the NERVE to give us a remix with Dixie Chicks. The only other soundtrack of my Freshman Year of College. It was everything I didn’t know I needed.
Everything Is Love
This album . . . is the soundtrack of the summer my life changed. This album is Malachi, and #ThatNigga, and #HE, and letting go of #HIM. This soundtrack of driving around in downtown Detroit, and random events around the city. Of looking for a job, then studying for my teacher certification. This album feels like once the storm is over, and you just need to celebrate.
Beyonce finally letting the rapper that lives inside free. She bodied Jay on every verse. We con’t care that he wrote them, she BODIED every beat. I love vulgar Beyonce. She don’t give a good hell about your feelings. She is happy, in love, and a mother of 3. You better get the fuck in where you fit in.
Homecoming
I mean . . . . . BeyChella was the blackest thing to happen ever. In life of ever. It took me back to college, and step shows. Watching my friends introduce their kids to her, having my sandz send me pics of her son dancing when he thought no one was looking. Watching people react to seeing it for the 1st time.
Before I Let Go . . . . The best, most blackest, most awesome thing ever. The fact that we finally got the album of BeyChella, then she had to do one more Black Ass Thing! Take the best Hustle song, and add a bounce beat to the back of it. We don’t deserve Beyonce. I’m just so grateful we have her.